On Being Brave and Scared.
This whoooole blog post is a little funny to me.
Which means that it is simultaneously terrifying (because what combination of words is worthy of being FIRST!?)...and it's also the post that no one will see again, like, probably ever. It will disappear to the bottom of the pile of posts that will eventually make their way onto this blog.
It's intimidating AND inconsequential. Yeesh.
...Speaking of this blog...
This is the beginning of something pretty scary for me. I have blogged for a long time casually, just whenever I wanted, updating family and friends on a "family blog" and inflicting my opinions on the world (name that TV show reference) with a secret writing/hobby blog that I have only shared with a small group. It's easy, in those situations, to pretend that you don't really care who reads it or doesn't...because, hey! It's just-for-fun. No big deal.
This blog is a little different. At least, I want it to be different. And it is scary for me to be so transparent about that! No feigned apathy here: I want lots of people to read this blog. I feel naked.
The bottom line is...I'm afraid to fail. And then, I remind myself that doing something that I love isn't failing at all, even if it doesn't really go as planned! And then I'm rolling my eyes at myself, thinking that I'm silly for even thinking I have anything interesting to share, that I'm not ________ enough. And then I read a quote about just giving it a shot!
And then I shout really loud to drown it all out, and I jump.
And so. This is me, closing my eyes and plugging my ears and jumping anyways. This is what my "being brave" looks like: starting something I've wanted to try for a long time...blogging like it's my job. I'm rolling my eyes at myself and patting myself on the back at the same time.
Anyways, in honour of this roller coaster...these quotes:
Don't be afraid of your fears.
They are not there to scare you. They're there to let you know that something is worth it.
-C. Joybell C.
It's not the size of the dog in the fight,
it's the size of the fight in the dog.
...you can, you should,
and if you're brave enough to start, you will.
-Stephen King, On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft
I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it.
The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.
It is hard to fail,
but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Wishing you many brave moments today, friends. You can totally do it.